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20 December 2006 @ 06:53 pm
 
How do you react when you see other people's cuts/burns/whatever? I've started to notice that I feel queasy when I see someone's accidental cut, though I may have done something twice that bad to myself. Self-inflicted wounds don't bother me at all. Thinking about it now, it seems completely irrational. Anyone else have the same experience?
 
 
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beautifully brokenmiss__confused on December 21st, 2006 05:41 am (UTC)
i get uneasy when i see them...god and when the topic of cutting comes up i just want to disappear. it makes me soooo uncomfortable for someone to talk about it like its this big thing and wrong. maybe bc only a few of my friends know about it...i dont know but i get really ashamed.
Scarlet Starletauroralynx on December 21st, 2006 06:17 am (UTC)
I totally relate to that. When people bring it up, it's generally to make fun of cutters and I want to tell them how ignorant they are, but at the same time I don't want to feel judged about it, even if I know they're just ignorant pricks. I think on a certain level, the whole "angsty mall punk cutter" stereotype is just a way for them to explain an act which to them seems completely counter-intuitive and bizarre.

And when my mom brings it up (she doesn't understand but she's generally empathetic) I just want to crawl into a hole. Even if she's not being judgemental, I feel like such a worthless excuse for a human being.
kresenda on December 21st, 2006 10:47 am (UTC)
When I see other peoples, it makes me hurt, like I did it to them. Almost like I was the reason they cut. I know its selfish, but...

And it's only with people I know. If I see like the girl at the supermarket with self inflicted wound, I actually become a snob and judge her by them. I laugh because they're not deep enough or something. I dont know... I tend to look down on them for not hiding them better, like they want the world to see and are proud, and thus I start thinking they're attention seeking rather than true.

Over all, it is just an uncomfy situ...
Scarlet Starletauroralynx on December 22nd, 2006 01:27 am (UTC)
I actually become a snob and judge her by them

Me too! When I see someone with minor self-inflicted cuts, I always start to feel a little smug because my scars are more hardcore (so to speak). And when the marks are really visible, I look down on them for being proud if it because, c'mon, look at mine. :P Scar snobbery...how weird. :P